8 October

As I go through this place called high school, I knotice myself changing. I feel mad more often. But it takes Amazing friends to make me bubbly again. Once again my friends have pulled me out of anger's reach. I feel wanted. To feel wanted, it dosen't have to be by a cute guy or boyfriend. You just have to have Friends who will go through hell with you. It's not just me who's changing. I promised myself I wouldn't forget my old friends. I still haven't. They have forgotten me. It hurts like Hell but I think I will survive. Sure we still talk over facebook.... Occasionaly. But I think that if they truly cared about me they would do morw to try to hang out with me. Somedays I feel retarted. I'll get a glare or look from some people and I suddenly feel lost. Like I don't belong here. Well u know what? I refuse to wear high socks because I think they look like granny sicks. I refuse to tease my hair because its painful to brush out. I refuse to coat on the eyeliner just to meet your definition of "cool". I refuse to flirt with just anyone! I refuse to Cuss in every sentence. Don't like it? Cry me a river. maybe make more use of your time than think about how "lame" or "stupid" I am.